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uhm, lex?
19 October 2009 @ 02:04 pm
So I'm sitting in my Creative Writing class right now. The last hour of the day, finally. I just want to go home and spend time with my family and my Sean. But you can always what you want. After I leave here I have to head straight to work at Vulcan. I don't want to see my dad. I want to see my mama and my Madisyn and of course my Paigey Poo.

But anyway I'm supposed to be writing a short story about anything of my choice but I can't come up with anything that is interesting enough to write about. Leave me ideas and thoughts of what you think i should write about and maybe I shall write about it. Please please tell me what you think.

Love. Love. Love. <3
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uhm, lex?
14 October 2009 @ 01:59 pm
You don't know my situation.
You have no idea what I have been through in my past or what I'm going through right now.
I hate that fact that you're so ignorant.
You have no understanding for things more important than this one little thing that's not important to anyone but you.
I hate that you don't care.
I hate that you won't listen.
I hate that you won't just try to understand.
I wish I could make my problems go away so I could fix yours but I can't.
I have to do what I can to deal with what I've been dealt.
I honestly don't give a flying fuck if you don't believe what I'm saying to be true or not. You can suck my dick.
You are so heartless.
You make me feel like shit even when I'm not in the wrong.
I will continue to do what's right for myself and my family.
I can't help that my mom is low on money and my dad doesn't give a shit.
Honestly, I'm done with this.

I miss you though, a lot.
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uhm, lex?
30 August 2009 @ 10:56 pm
This weekend was pretty nice. :)

On Friday I went to the big game in Logan. In the car we had Sean, Johnny, Sam, Taylor B, and myself. The ride there was pretty sweet.
I saw everyone I haven't seen in forever. Jon, Daysha, Trent, Max, Tim W, Nicole, Haley, Taby, and Steph. I swear I was destined to be there so I could see all my amazing friends that I hadn't seen on ages. Then after the game James came over and Sean and Il fell asleep in the living room. Ha! When I woke up James was right in my face. It scared the shit out of me but he woke me up to say goodbye.

On Saturday Sean and I went to his aunt Tema's place where I played with Hayli and met a new friend, Joey. Who is Sean's uncle person thing who is a roomate of Tema's. We cooked six packages of ramen noodles and ate them all. And we watched a bunch of good movies. The Mod Squad, Never Back Down, The Craft, and Rent. I cried my eyes out during Rent. It was the first time I'd ever seen it and now I'm in love with it. Joey is a pretty nice guy I was glad to meet him since I'd heard so much about him from Sean.

Today Sean and I were pretty much lazy and laid I'm bed all day. We went out for ice cream and cleaned out his car. When it came time to say our goodbyes I didn't want to let go. I never do. Even though there is only five days between each weekend we spend together I still miss him already. When he left I lounged around the house and had an awesomely amazing conversation with Joey via text message. He is a nice guy and I think he'll be a great friend to me. He told me if I ever needed anything day or night all I had to do was call or text and he'd be there. He's a pretty cool guy and a great dad and I'm very glad to have met him. :)

Oh and due to that fucking football game I got my lovely sinuses all sorts of fucked up. :(

But it was still great.
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uhm, lex?
27 August 2009 @ 11:21 pm
I'm laying in bead at the moment and my head hurts like a bitch.
What's the deal? Oh man this is the worst I've had in a long time.

Anyway, tomorrow is Friday! Finally.
There's a big football game in Logan tomorrow I'm gonna go.
Hopefully Sean and Johnny are going too.

Not much went on today.
Tomorrow is new.

uhm, lex?
23 July 2009 @ 02:04 pm

Today was complete an total bullshit.

Nuff said.

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uhm, lex?
22 July 2009 @ 11:37 am

The days I have spent in this apartment will be nothing but memories. Thank Spock! I hate this place.

I will finally have my own (big) yard to play in with no nosey neighbors or other dogs that barks all the time. And it's great because you can't go an hour without seeing a bunny or squirel. And we're going to plant a big tree in our big yard with a garden and a swimming pool and a swing set. It will just be so great. Oh and we'll have another addition to the family. Her name is Paige and she is eighteen hours older than me. We've been eat friends for sixteen years and after a long fight we're finally getting custody of her.

Oh man, this is going to be great.

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uhm, lex?
21 July 2009 @ 02:36 pm

So it's been a long long time.

Well, let's see I'm finally moving into a house that my mom owns. Which means well have more money for bills and food! My dad hates that were moving out of here into the other house instead of coming home to him. But he only sees things from his point I view and no one elses. He's been acting like a two year old lately so I have chosen not to speak to him.

Everything has been so crazy.

How is everyone?

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uhm, lex?
07 June 2009 @ 11:32 pm
This was a real good birthday. Off to be with James tomorrow!
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uhm, lex?
17 May 2009 @ 05:58 pm
I'm so depressed.
I want school to end so I can hide from everyone.

I went to graduation and I can't lie I'm really sad.
I'm not really friends with any of them except Jon.
I'm really gonna miss him coming over and hanging out all the time.
And his piggy back rides and his hugs.

Sean and I are falling apart. What once was flawless has a bunch of holes in it.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
This feeling is terrible.

The end.
uhm, lex?
10 May 2009 @ 02:04 pm

"It's gonna take a little time to show you just what you mean to me. You're everything to me..."

fuck i wish he could see it.

i love him so much it hurts...

i'm fucking out.
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